Reasons to do a PhD that seem perfectly normal (but many probably aren't):1. to ease a move to another country2. in lieu of universal basic income 3. to be diagnosed with ADHD (otherwise costly process--question of whether I would seek the diagnosis or medication if not doing a PhD... debatable)4. health insurance and free mental … Continue reading listing/ listless/ listening
Month: July 2020
A list of infinitives (during a week of miraculous virtual encounters with Martina Evans, Raymond Antrobus, Colette Bryce and Cathy Sweeney)
To strip language (Simone Weil, Fanny Howe, Kay Ryan)To make it hold (Kay Ryan)To make it whole To make it holy (or know that it is, already) To slow it downTo slow downTo forget it To remember the bodyTo let the body speak To mishear (and misread)To practice To decontaminate it (M. NourbeSe Philip)To grind … Continue reading A list of infinitives (during a week of miraculous virtual encounters with Martina Evans, Raymond Antrobus, Colette Bryce and Cathy Sweeney)
not nostalgia/ work that brings pleasure
numbered brain
There are times I wish I'd had different lonelinesses than the ones I had. When I thought of myself as straight (only possible by seeing myself nearly entirely through the eyes of others), I thought a lot about the notion of falling in love repeatedly with the same person, in a different form, replicating an … Continue reading numbered brain
death of the artist
When I was a child, I drew on everything, including walls and bedding. Every child draws, but I don't know if everyone remembers becoming aware of conceptual milestones while drawing as a child? A mechanism made--still makes--me try something always in a different way. I remember the sudden awareness of a new ability--I was not … Continue reading death of the artist
feeling is mutual 